Monday, February 6, 2012

Mothers


You love your mom, I'm pretty sure. But what would you do if something happened to her?? My mother has M.S (Multiple Sclerosis) Which has no cure and is deadly. She went from being able to halfway walk a few years ago even though it was hard, and being able to drive, to not being able to do ANYTHING on her own. She is in a wheelchair and sometimes she spends hours in the bathroom not being able to do anything. She can hardly even leave her house. And she is non-stop shaking. And for those of you who do not know what M.S is "Multiple sclerosis (or MS) is a chronic, often disabling disease that attacks the central nervous system, which is made up of the brain, spinal cord, and optic nerves. Symptoms may be mild, such as numbness in the limbs, or severe, such as paralysis or loss of vision. The progress, severity, and specific symptoms of MS are unpredictable and vary from one person to another." 
And right now my mother is pretty severe. And she could die any day now. She does not have much longer and I know that. She came down with M.S almost right after finally getting her cosmetology license. She worked so hard for it. Then when she came down with M.S she couldn't do it anymore. Her vision started going in and out and she couldn't control her shaking. Me and my mom have not always gotten along, but I still love her. I don't know what I would do if I ever lost her. She's my world, the woman that gave birth to me. I would do anything in my power to help her and if I could I would make me have the disease instead of her. I read that you are more likely to get M.S if some people in your family have it. Which means I might be at risk in the future too. I'm not afraid though. Because then I'll know the pain she is feeling. And how hard it is on her. Until then I will never TRULY understand. I don't want to have it because it is very difficult to live with and deadly but I'm ready for it if it happens. I'll always be there for her whenever she needs me or needs somebody to just confide in. Everybody needs somebody to talk to. Me myself, I usually hold stuff in. I don't talk to anybody or tell people what is wrong. But when something big happened in my life she was the first person I went to. I ended up calling her in the middle of the night crying and telling her things that I would normally never tell anybody. That's when I knew that if something was seriously wrong I would turn to her. And again, me and her have not always gotten along. We've had some big things happen when I lived with her but I love her with all my heart. We never meant for anything that happened to happen. She's helped me in more ways then she knows. So my question to you guys is: What would you do if you ever lost your mom to a deadly disease? How would you handle it?. Me, I don't know what I would do if that day ever comes...

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Men...

You know what's wrong with society today? Men. Yes you heard me right, men. You never know how there feeling or if you did something wrong. You know what's even worse? When you try to talk to them and apparently something else upset them that day so they completely ignore you and take it out on your animals. And what is even worse then THAT is when something terrible happens to you and for some reason you become disabled, and since you can't have sex with them they decide to go look else where and cheat on you. And they think your naive and won't be able to notice. FYI, GIRLS ARE MORE OBSERVANT THEN MEN!! If you don't plan on being there for your wife though good AND bad then don't get married or get into a relationship, period. In wedding vows it says "For better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to CHERISH." That does NOT mean that when things get rough or somebody becomes very ill to go look for somebody that can give you what that person can't (meaning sex.) What is also horrible and related to the first part is when an illegal Mexican marries somebody for there green card and that person has no clue. Then when that person becomes Ill they cheat on them. In there own house, with her home. Thinking she is asleep when she isn't! And also treat her daughter with disrespect and trying to harm her in other ways. And no, I do not have anything against Mexicans or any other race for that matter, if they are LEGAL. When an illegal Mexican comes and just marries somebody for there green card then treats them like that then yes I have a problem with them. M.S is a deadly disease and it's horrible for anybody to have. Then when you finally think you found somebody that loves you and will always be there for you, BAM! They become just like every other guy on the planet. Now don't get me wrong, not all guys are like that. But alot are. You just can't trust them. I will never trust another guy other then my fiance again in my life. They have all screwed me over and showed that they are all alike. And I don't care what anybody says, guys love to see you cry. It gives them pleasure to know they could make that happen. And you give your whole heart to them and more and all they do is TRY to make you cry. And guys have it so much easier then girls do. We have to have a period, go through being pregnant, giving birth, cramps, bloating, etc. And we also have to look over our appearance 24'7. Doing make up, doing our hair, picking out the perfect outfit. And for what? Just so guys can pay attention to us? They don't even bother looking at us if we don't have our make up or hair done. It's pathetic. But back to illegal aliens. It pisses me off that they have the nerve to even do that. Especially to somebody who has done nothing but try to please you even though she's extremely sick and could die any day. Then you go fuck around. In the very house that you two live in together! While she is home! That is just SICK. But believe me, you'll get what's coming to you. Maybe not today or next week. But you will. And don't be surprised when karma comes back and bites you in the ass.....